ifuckjedis asked: I just wanted to start off by saying I love your blog. The way you write about your daughter melts my heart. I feel the same way about my son. (who is 4 now) I was going through your photos.. seeing that you cut before. Do you still get urges or has that changed now that you're going to be a mommy? Personally, after my son it's only gotten better.

Oh of course I get urges, I’ll probably always want to. Although my life has changed drastically for the better, and things can’t get too much better, it doesn’t take away the fact that self harm was a constant in my life for over 7 years. It was the only thing I turned to when I got frustrated or sad or angry, or lonely. Being pregnant has brought on a billion emotions that get extremely difficult to deal with, but now that I’ve got a baby on the way, I feel as though if I were to hurt myself, I’d be hurting my baby. 

I truly miss it, and I hope that once she’s here I’ll be so preoccupied with her that I wont think about it much. I know it’ll only get easier with time.