I’ve been asked about a thousand and one times to write a bio about myself, but I haven’t been good at these since the myspace days. So bare with me. 

I’m not a kid anymore, I’ve been around for 20 years, and I hate the expression ‘years young.’ I’ve been through far too much to consider myself young, and I’m proud of my maturity. I’m a sexually uninhibited dreamer who thinks too much sometimes and doesn’t think at all sometimes. Back in high school I was on the dance team, I played violin, and I dated a lot of boys and girls. I was never popular, and until I realized that I wasn’t meant for popularity I tried so hard to fit in it almost killed me. I’ve been through hell and back and I’m finally sitting somewhere near the top. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts and self harm for almost a decade and I think I’m finally putting that far behind me. I used to let my obsession with perfection take over, and I did anything I could to be ‘beautiful.’ I’ve been diagnosed with EDNOS, Anorexia and Bulimia for years and it’s become part of my description along with being manic depressive and a handfull of other disorders that everyone claims to have. I’m five feet four inches tall, and on March 6th, I’m going to be twenty one years old. 

You know those people who watch sad movies or read emotive poetry, or listen to a song and feel every negative emotion that’s portrayed in the art? I’m one of those people, with a family history that heavily involves music, I can appreciate any kind and I listen to a wide variety of music. I’m a Satanist, and I haven’t taken the title without good knowledge on the philosophy and I take pride in my belief system and moral code.

I’m pregnant, and while I write this I’m exactly 9 weeks pregnant. I’m not showing yet, but I’ve always wanted to be a mother and after being told that I wouldn’t be able to, conceiving was a miracle in itself.

I’m in a wonderful relationship with my best friend, and the man who saved my life Benedict Tralongo. He’s everything I could ask for even if we’re very different from each other with VERY different ideas. I’ve got explosive anger that I sometimes can’t control and it’s one of my biggest downfalls. I have debilitating anxiety, it controls me and leaves me without much of a social life, I think I’ve gained that through many years of being the outcast,  and being harassed and bullied through school for being who I was. Now I embrace it, and I don’t mind being a hermit, because I live with my wonderful cat and boy, with two of my closest friends down the hall from me. 

I’d like to say I’m improved, if you asked me where I thought I’d be now, last winter, I’d probably say, ‘dead.’ I struggled with drug addiction of the hardest kinds and I’ve been clean from everything except mary jane since June. Opiates are my enemy, but so are stimulants. I’ve enjoyed everything I’ve snorted, smoked, and put into my body a little too much, and I’m happy to say that that chapter of my life is over for good. 
I’ve got a good relationship with my mom, finally, and my dad and I are closer than ever with the promise of a grandchild on the way, my brother, who used to be my best friend since I was a child has gone through a lot of mental changes and he’s not the person he once was and that’s been one of the most difficult things I’ve had to go through of all. He was once everything to me. 

I’m a pornographic actress, fetish/nude model for BurningAngel.com and hopefully one day I can branch out into mainstream porn although I think it’s all wishful thinking and the time when someone with self harm scars, and facial tattoos is accepted into something other than what’s considered alt porn is a long time from now. I’m dedicated to furthering my career but right now I’m only concerned about my pregnancy and making sure my baby is as healthy as can be.

I’m proud of who I am, and I don’t take any negative comments to heart anymore. Because I’m fulfilling my dream, I’m living for myself and no one else, and I’m happier than I’ve ever been.